I feel the call of summer

I feel the call of summer

The summer solstice has just passed and the warm dry air is arriving, pushing away the gentleness of spring, the finicky nature of spring’s cold, then hot, then rainy days. I feel the heat on my body and the suns rays which can burn my sensitive skin. In some ways, I feel like I’m waking from sleep, from a dream where I didn’t have time to look around and now as I wake up from that dream and notice where I am and what surrounds me, I’m thankful.

The full moon on June 25th is my time for awakening and coming out of a season of busy. I find myself with unscheduled moments and time alone unexpected and I realize it’s so easy to lose track of things most precious, to lose touch with what once filled my time and heart. Since I’m not running around for school drop-offs, pickups, circus classes and I’ve put down other plates as well, I’m contemplating what I’ll do with these few extra, empty moments in my day and week.

At first, I was unsure, thinking about all the things I need to do, but I’ve vowed to “waste” time, to use it for frivolities- nothing to do with housekeeping, or being responsible is allowed. I want to spend that time on pleasure and joy and fun. My first taste of that free time was filled with a little banjo practice, which I’m sad to say had been neglected so badly, I was at a true loss as to where to start. “From the beginning.” came a voice and so I did. I went back to the basics and the knowledge returned. My fingers remembered even if my mind didn’t. Now, I wonder what else my body remembers that my mind has forgotten- dancing, painting, drumming, resting. No matter what frivolities fill this empty space I’ll enjoy it, take it slow, let myself be still and see what my body calls for.